i cant say this enough but im seriously in love with my summer
i think that this summer has to be my most productive summer
im always out and about and sometimes im left with nothing but to rot
but sometimes im actually doing something that i can fill my camera with
i still have to go shopping at the shoppes
and i still have to go to that la zoo with hongyookyung
im personally in love with the accord
i really need and want a car already
my parents have been lagging so much on it that i feel like im never gonna be able to drive
i hate driving but i hate being assed out all the goddamn time
i have so many movies that need to watch its ridiculous
i find myself on the clothing websites deciding which one i should buy
how PATHETIC.
lol well on the other note

the more i see some of my friends
the more i wonder why im friends with some of them
maybe they're not my friends but im considering them something higher than they really are
some are so immature and so narrowminded with their perspective of life
that it seems to bother me.
why is it that people find it so hard to grow out and reach out to others
why can't they appreciate others for what they try to do
and be grateful for what they have.
all this shady business going on around me all this skandy shit
it drives me crazy.
it makes me think and believe so strongly that this world is SO selfish.
its really all up to us and only us
and it tends to be the selfish route.
if we arent selfish in what we do and how we live
it feels like we can't accomplish what we want.
we try and strive because we want what others can't have.
we put down other and take credit for things that we didnt accomplish on our own
so that we can actually make a place for us, individuals, in this world
which is a pretty sick and sad thing.
oh well this world is harsh its sucks
so take care of yourself cause in the end its really down to
me myself and i

then end

i just talked to my parents and they're finally rethinking my car situation
its beautiful (= hahaha well i had to wait for a long time
just cause i kept fucking up on life-___-
hmmmmm i want to do something drastic to my hair.
but then im waiting for my perm :( so i cant even cut it.
i really am sick of all my haircuts. its so similar
layers black bangs long.
i wish i thought of THE new haircut that everyone wants to follow HAHAHAH
Im still watching korean dramas
and im still spending money like its nothing

HAHAHHAHAHA

im craving yogurtland.
my eyes have been burning
i've been watching so much korean dramas
its ridiculous ahhahahahah
i need to shower i feel so disgusting
i want some soju or some jasmine tea
ok goodbye for today HAHAHA<3

you stay on my mind, even when i dont want you to.

so summer has been absolutely sweeeelllll (=
even though for some reason it doesnt feel like summer
maybe its cause im currently attending summer school lol
i feel like last summer i had so much more exciting events during summer
and then i think about and i did absolutely nothing last summer
i just rotted at parks and shit haha
this summer IS alot more fun for me
as i said before i've never been so satisfied with a group of friends
the worst thing about summer is not being able to see my OWN bestfriend
i see others more than i see her :( wtf
i 've also thought that this summer i was going to be REAL anti social
just cause i felt like it. i thought i could use the solitude
i've been smoking more than ever and i've been craving alcohol but eh-__-
show's how mature i am.

summer schools coming to an end and surprisingly im really sad.
summer school just gets me excited about the upcoming school year.
school year is starting in literally two months then im a big mighty senior!!
four years of my highschool went by so quickly.
it makes me feel so... old in a way.
the fact that im not gonna be able to stay in my comfort zone intimidates me
im changing so quickly into such a stronger person that it impresses me.
how useless shit doesnt faze me, how bitches don't scare me,
and how i just dont give a flying fuck about what other say or think of me.
it really scares me how fast people can change by looking at myself.
the way i dress the way i talk changed so much-____-
im not sure if thats a good thing or bad thing
but i actually like it.

im starting to dress alot more the way i want to
listening to alot more mellow music
portray myself the way i want to
and keep the friendships that i want to keep
i guess sylviasjbaek is really growing up
it hurts to see some of those that i know that are still SO immature.
im not saying that i've grown up already and i know everything
maybe it might just be different mentalities colliding
but whats the point of broadcasting their lives on the internet,
seeking attention, craving drama
when you dont get any self satisfaction?
am i missing the point of that lifestyle? IS IT REALLY THAT EXCITING
GROW THE FUCK UP
and see the bigger picture. sorry to break it to you but NO ONE cares.
HONESTLY. no one cares about anything
no one cares about anyone more than they care about themselves
now a days who has time to care about how others live their lives
when its already frustrating to live our own.

thinking gets me satisfied.
time to listen to froufrou HAHAHAHAH
GOODNIGHT MY AUDIENCE :D